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first off i just want to apologise if that last journal seemed overly attention-seeking and "validate my art to me"! it wasn't my intention when i originally posted it, i just needed somewhere to vent about how much art class is sucking for me at the moment, and dA was the only place available to me at the time. i honestly didn't expect y'all to respond as you did and i'm super touched!
since i posted that journal though there has been an update in the drama going on. long story short, my art teacher decided -- despite having seen my portfolio daily this week -- to wait until the day before it was due to tell me that i was missing four paintings, and without them i would fail.
she did her usual passive-aggressive spiel and tried to talk me into using some of the work from the beginning of the year, ensuring me that it would "be ok" (which it wouldn't be, because that,s sjust how she plays things), and straight up telling me that i couldn't complete the four paintings by 9am the next morning.
so of course i set out on a journey of epic proportions to prove her wrong. four paintings, 10 consequtive hours of painting, and one all-nighter later, i accomplished exactly what my art teacher told me i could not accomplish.
i produced four finished paintings from scratch with more than four hours to spare before the deadline. and they look damn good.
my teacher aint got shit on me no more.
ngl i probably wouldn't have been able to do it if it weren't for Wavechanger keeping me company, for which i'm super grateful else i probably would have driven a paintbrush through my skull sometime in the early hours of the morning. so heres to you man, youre awesome.
also because i'm going on 30 hours without sleep and im going through some serious reality doubts and without an eyewitness of sorts to confirm that this actually happened i'd probably just be writing it all off as a dream.
also because i'm going on 30 hours without sleep and im going through some serious reality doubts and without an eyewitness of sorts to confirm that this actually happened i'd probably just be writing it all off as a dream.
(i'm not even kidding it took me five minutes this morning to realise that hands are a thing and i have two of them. help me.) i am literally running off of adrenaline and caffeine right now and im fast running out of the latter.
there was definitely more that i wanted to add here but im not remembering it. it s becoming a conscious effort just to remain balanced anymore so
thats that i guess??.
annual update!
hello it's been over a year since i last wrote a journal so thought it was time for a new one :') (side note: does anyone else remember/miss the days when journals let you fill in details about what you were watching, listening to, playing etc? it's such meaningless trivial information but i loved those little insights into people's lives and i miss them. if you're curious, i'm currently drinking dry lemonade and listening to the 999 OST) anyway! what's been going on in my life the past ~year? * i've worked three separate jobs (not consecutively) -- last summer i ran away with my friends to pick apples in the middle of nowhere for a month, then i got a pretty sick gig running workshops for the first-year uni students on sex & consent, and finally i returned to my old traffic controller job for a short (and hopefully final!) stint. * i fucked my body up big-time. last september i developed tendonitis in my dominant hand from drawing shulk xenoblade too much (i really fucking wish
hello friends it has been a while (life update?)
woo didn't realise that it's been almost two whole years since my last journal! i've been quite quiet on dA during that time, partly bc i just? don't really enjoy it much as a site anymore, and partly because i have had a lot of Big Life Stuff going on. also i still don't draw a whole lot atm and have been feeling quite insecure about my art as of late! am slowly working through that insecurity, and trying to focus primarily on art exercises + Actually Finishing The Pieces I Start, so we'll see how that goes. :> the biggest life update i have to share is: I graduated university!!! ya girl has a whole-ass DEGREE !!!! and i am now in the process of getting another one! my undergraduate is in microbiology, but i did all of 6 weeks of postgrad micro before realising that it made me absolutely miserable, so i switched courses and am now doing a postgrad in public health. my interests lie heavily in infectious disease, so i'm hoping to eventually pursue a career involving like, surveillance
Inktober 2018!
i had this written out already but then my computer crashed before i could post it hhhh
first, an apology for the recent hiARTus, uni has been curb-stomping the hell out of me recently ;_; just last monday i had three assessments, including a (peer-assessed) group presentation and a test that got delayed by an hour because the uni didn't print enough test scripts. thankfully the only thing i really have left is exams (screams) so i have a lil more time to DRAW
which means that i'll be participating in inktober!! i'm running with an OC-based prompt list and i'm so excited to be drawing my Daughter Kirri all month!! :heart:
lemme know if you
hello it is SPRING
i know this because my head is clear and my heart is full and my motivation to draw has returned with a vengeance
i've done practically nothing else all weekend (it's 4:20 on a sunday blaze it) and it just feels so damn good. i can get so lazy when it comes to being creative and then i forget just how much i actually enjoy it! it seems to be a recurring pattern though, i've noticed for the past few years my motivation always picks up about this time of year and then i churn out art/writing like crazy for a couple months until autumn rolls around.
i'm not going to make any promises about 'being active for once guys!!!' because it seems like
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Aye I keep saying it but I'm proud of you man!
Also you should really get a good amount of sleep the following few nights.
(cause holy shit bro forgetting about hands sounds kinda serious)
And don't worry about it man it was fun talking to you during it all!
Also you should really get a good amount of sleep the following few nights.
(cause holy shit bro forgetting about hands sounds kinda serious)
And don't worry about it man it was fun talking to you during it all!